And here we are 2014, nothing really has changed. Or has it?
As we finalize January with a warm weather that brightness my soul, I keep
wondering what will this New Year bring? It is marvelous how moods, thoughts,
feelings and perceptions change. Yesterday I was thinking to myself, trying to
break down certain events hoping I would reach the truth. My brain was exhausted,
I went over and over trying to connect the dots, but I failed. The mystery of
this situation that I was put in, involves several elements that are still
strangers to me. As I wrapped it up, I felt angry and betrayed. Then I felt strong,
and fell asleep. It has been a while since I felt that strength that everyone around
me acknowledges. I tend to be quite emotional and friendly with my feelings, if
sadness approaches I hold its hand and we walk together, if happiness smiles at
me, I smile back. But I haven’t been giving my strength any justice. But last
night, I couldn’t deny it and I allowed it to take over. Isn’t it funny that
when you feel sadness, you tend to imagine a bright and sunny world and a cloud
on you depriving you from warmth. Well sadiqi, you are not alone, I am not alone,
we are not alone. After 6 years, I finally signed up for Spanish classes and my
oh my, that language is confusing. But challenging my self has definitely been
a mood booster for me. Challenges should be a daily encounter, I believe it
allows you to realize how much you can do and more so how important it is to
never give up. Having much time on my hands, I tend to spend a lot of time on Instagram,
I sometimes find myself on profiles that blow my mind. The creativity in some
people is super le maximo magnífico. I hope creativity is the next religion that
will defuse the political bomb that is about to swipe all innocence. The art of
living has been corrupted with extreme religious beliefs and mad political starvation,
a reality that is hard to fathom but impossible to oversee. My friend asked me
today, “Are you in love?” I kept the truth to myself, to be honest not many
appreciate the truth and love is personal I have learned. But I will share this;
I am in love with this world. Regardless of the madness that is spreading, I look
forward to visiting every corner, to meeting new people, to finding love in
every step I take. And remember some people don’t deserve your love, but they deserve
a chance.